Five times I have suspected but yesterday it was confirmed. Let’s dive in but please be aware that this topic is going to get pretty deep. It may bring up emotions that need to taken to God in prayer. Please, also if you can share with your husband while reading this or share with him immediately after.


If you have listened to my podcasts or read my previous blogs I try to be as transparent as possible while respecting my families privacy, honoring my husband, and the need for discretion. Well,  this will be no different. In my blog entitled Graves into Gardens where I shared that we had experienced our 5th miscarriage. Since then I have been healing, and working with our doctor to figure out why it has happened so many times. My results from my last visit was in, and me in my inexperienced medical background tried to make sense of the findings on my own. I prayed because I didn’t want to be anxious with the uncertainty of what it all meant. For reasons I couldn’t control I had to miss my follow up and I had to wait another 5 days to hear what I wondered about over the course of our entire marriage. What was wrong with me? I knew that the Lord healed my scroll long list of issues before we conceived our oldest, but since then its been full of fertility ups and downs, or so I thought. The five days seemed like months then the nurse finally called back………..She apologized for the delay and told me that my results were NORMAL! Usually anyone that I know of would be elated by hearing the words normal, but immediately I struggled to find the words to say. She had no further info besides that. She was even put off by my reaction. I sat at the table with the accuser of the brethren, satan in my ear: I thought your God was good. Why are your babies dying when people who aren’t married seem to have babies whenever they want? Why would you have to go through this over and over again? I tearfully told my husband the news and he was also confused about why I looked devastated. When he left the room I prayed urgently for right perspective because I could feel bitterness smoldering like coals within me. God heard and helped me quickly coming to my rescue. I rebuked satan because it was him who was stealing, killing, and destroying!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He was busy trying to tempt me to distrust my only constant protector leader and guider. This is not a slam on my husband. He leads well, provides, protects, and pours myself out for us as humanly possible, but My Lord and faithful savior never sleeps nor slumbers! I was livid to hear the audacity of the enemy to try to sway me. It was him though all along, and I rebuked him throughly and kept praying. How dare I trust the deceiver? We are talking about the Lord God Almighty. The same God who has brought me through all the things life has thrown at me. I couldn’t afford to side with satan. God is too good for that. I was left with an urgency to pray for myself and pray for any woman that is experiencing infertility and miscarriages ect. Your offspring could be being blocked, and held up. Better yet let me explained it as they are being TARGETED! I used to tell my husband that each time we miscarried it was something that happened 1st to cause it. I thought it was me being paranoid at first, but it was brought back to my attention what occurred each time. The 1st time was due to me feeling the need to carry a heavy tv while helping a friend move. This is something that was uncharacteristic of me. The 2nd time I was taking our toddler son back to bed and the same stairs I’ve traveled hundreds of times I fell suddenly down a full flight of stairs. The 3rd time I was “accidentally” hit in my stomach due to someone falling into me. The fourth time was an accidental elbow from someone else falling into my relaxed stomach, and the 5th time it happened after having to more furniture across the room on a trip while my husband was at work. Its been calculated attacks from satan to steal my children. These happened in between the births of our 3 miracle babies.

This year was the 1st time we ever lost two in one year. I come to serve notice on the devil that no more will be destroyed. We determined that storming the gates focus this year would not be without hardships, but two babies gone! That stung, but God will not be mocked. Do not be deceived, God is not mocked; for whatever a man sows, that he will also reap. For he who sows to his flesh will of the flesh reap corruption, but he who sows to the Spirit will of the Spirit reap everlasting life. And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart.

Galatians 6:7‭-‬9 NKJV

 It reminds me that in John 10:10 says- The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.
John 10:10 ESV

I have a quick warning do not do what I am about to share without talking and agreeing with your husband 1st. I am in no way trying to tell anyone’s husband what to do, or go against something you’ve already established in your home.With that being said …. For the entire month of December I will be praying for everyone with a bad diagnosis to be reversed. Praying for for barren wombs to come to life. Praying too for our faith to be increased because God is all powerful. Will you pray and believe with me? You can contact me privately if you like to.

I am reminded of a passage of scripture in Ezekiel 37:1-13 the hand of the Lord was upon me, and he brought me out in the Spirit of the Lord and set me down in the middle of the valley; it was full of bones. And he led me around among them, and behold, there were very many on the surface of the valley, and behold, they were very dry. And he said to me, “Son of man, can these bones live?” And I answered, “O Lord God, you know.” Then he said to me, “Prophesy over these bones, and say to them, O dry bones, hear the word of the Lord. Thus says the Lord God to these bones: Behold, I will cause breath to enter you, and you shall live. And I will lay sinews upon you, and will cause flesh to come upon you, and cover you with skin, and put breath in you, and you shall live, and you shall know that I am the Lord.” So I prophesied as I was commanded. And as I prophesied, there was a sound, and behold, a rattling, and the bones came together, bone to its bone. And I looked, and behold, there were sinews on them, and flesh had come upon them, and skin had covered them. But there was no breath in them. Then he said to me, “Prophesy to the breath; prophesy, son of man, and say to the breath, Thus says the Lord God: Come from the four winds, O breath, and breathe on these slain, that they may live.” So I prophesied as he commanded me, and the breath came into them, and they lived and stood on their feet, an exceedingly great army. Then he said to me, “Son of man, these bones are the whole house of Israel. Behold, they say, ‘Our bones are dried up, and our hope is lost; we are indeed cut off.’ Therefore prophesy, and say to them, Thus says the Lord God: Behold, I will open your graves and raise you from your graves, O my people. And I will bring you into the land of Israel. And you shall know that I am the Lord, when I open your graves, and raise you from your graves, O my people.

Ezekiel 37:1‭-‬13 ESV

What can’t God do ladies? God has done so many miracles in me and our family. This same God healed and reversed my husbands successful vasectomy after praying for months to have more kids. We regretted getting it in the 1st place. We were ill advised yet God mercifully reversed it without any medical intervention. Just God !!!! My husbands doctor said he’s seen medical reversals not look like what God did. He said it was like he never had one. If he didn’t see the scar he would not have believed it, and our baby girl turned 3 this year. There is nothing to hard for God. 

My family and I already pray for you weekly but this prayer will be focused on faithfully going to God with humility and expectancy for the next 30 days for bodies to be healed, and wombs to be barren no more. Will you join me? What’s the worst that can happen you grow deeper in your faith?

Faith without works is dead ladies so you know what that means Christian MARRIED women have fun putting that work in for the Glory of God. Let’s do like Matthew 6:33 says as I paraphrase seek God and His kingdom first and His righteousness. Don’t worry about the rest. Enjoy growing in your faith in Christ.


Lord let this be a month of fruitfulness. Open what man says is closed. Let the bound go free, and dumbfound many with your power God. All for your Glory in Jesus name amen.

Ladies, Always remember to trust God as you cry and repeat God bless you . 

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