This song has been on repeat in my brain lately. Sovereign by: Beautiful Eulogy
You are who You are
And You will never fail to be who You are
Always on time, always in control
Every knee should bow, you are Lord of all -Sovereign, sovereign

I can’t get enough of that truth. God is amazing, and the things He does blows my mind. 

I remember stepping off of the elevator after a forced lunch/break from our daughter’s bedside. When ten doctors flew past my husband and I. I thought to myself they must be going somewhere very important. We quickly came face to face with reality. Our baby girl who was already on life support lungs were failing. They were rushing to her.

Time slowed down…monitors…..breathes slowed….alarms blared, and all we could do was sit and pray trusting God for her life not to end here. We felt helpless so we prayed more, and believed God for her next breathes until suddenly she got stable. The full account is in my 1st book @ TrustGodcryrepeat.com

On to the next account.

I was humbled by the opportunity to celebrate another birthday for our son. Every birthday I take a second to remind the guests how sovereign God is. 10 years ago my husband and I sat in a hospital room wrestling with the news that my miracle baby was a miscarriage.
Stating that within a day or so I would pass the tissue left from the miscarriage. At a women’s clinic one week prior they gave me a book of what happens inside from conception to birth. So, after the spotting and ultrasound.  I told my husband I think I’m just earlier than expected as I chocked back the tears. I was hoping I wasn’t miscarrying again. We held each other. We felt low. We hit a pivotal moment in our marriage, spiritual growth, and faith. We were either going to Trust God Cry Repeat or embrace what it looked like and harden our hearts towards God.

Our faith was teter totering until I started praying out loud reminding God of who He is, and after a few rounds I was reminded instead that God is Sovereign, faithful, and perfect. I brought up God’s resume.

We resigned to believe that if we lost everything but still had Him we would be ok.

It was the worst best experience of my life. To make matters worse non- viable was stated for him all the way until I was eight and a half months. I was put on bed rest due to early contractions. I delivered our miscarrisge/non viable baby boy September 2011 with zero complications and he just turned ten. 

God is sovereign. He very well could have allowed him to never be born, but God over turned the reports of the doctors around, and he is a joy to parent.

What is in your life today ladies that seems non-viable? 

What needs to be turned around?

Will you trust God today for what He desires? 

Isaiah 55:8-11- For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.   “For as the rain and the snow come down from heaven and do not return there but water the earth, making it bring forth and sprout,  giving seed to the sower and bread to the eater,  so shall my word be that goes out from my mouth; it shall not return to me empty, but it shall accomplish that which I purpose, and shall succeed in the thing for which I sent it.

Matthew 19:26 “And looking at them Jesus said to them, ‘With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”

My husband reminded me that even the cross looked like a defeated to the disciples.

However Christ knew the need for it, and what it would bring to all.

2 Peter 3:9
The Lord is not slow to fulfill his promise as some count slowness, but is patient toward you,  not wishing that any should perish, but that all should reach repentance.

Whatever God said will be, will be. Whatever He said won’t be wont be! Thats for any and everything.

The devil is insidious. Taunting that I have lost five and three are living. Taunting that I’ve lost more than I’ve gained.

I know something he doesn’t though. The doctors said early in marriage that it was physically impossible for me to ever conceive in 2005 . So, every last baby that I’ve ever conceived, yes all 8, and those to come in the future serves notice that the devil that God has the FINAL SAY!!!!!

Ladies, The enemy loves to accuse and mock but the scripture says in Gal. 6:7-9 Do not be deceived: God is not mocked, for whatever one sows, that will he also reap. For the one who sows to his own flesh will from the flesh reap corruption, but the one who sows to the Spirit will from the Spirit reap eternal life. And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up.

Galatians 6:7‭-‬9 ESV

As I get ready to wrap this up I’m enduring through what feels like a defeat in my body with our 5th miscarriage. I’m trusting God with the current struggles, and for healing.

Remember to Trust God as you Cry and Repeat. 

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God’s will is perfect!