Been there done it before Poetry inspired by the audible breaking of ones heart. Inspired by the thoughts of satan. Having you harm yourself, feel bad and repeat. Instead of kneel down, surrender, and receive.The Bible is not false .It can not be compared to an earthly mother or father’s love.Christ’s love is like none others. Christ desires realness.The good bad and the ugly, but satan makes it seem like God is so far away instead of near. He’s kept you in your drunkenness he sees your every tear. It’s a revolving door distraction from satan to make you feel like an orphaned victim. It’s like Stockholm syndrome. The captive falls for the captors. They say see. Satans helping get things to numb my pain isnt that sweet?As these lies blind your heart and seep into your bloodstream and before long you are protecting your captor from God. You are smacking His hands and snatching the prison doors struggling screaming God leave satan alone look at how he cuddled me with these poisons and he listened  everytime I cried. Even if it was his lies that caused my tears in the 1st place. Smiles illuminate from elation that your foe has made toxic friend.So, see

God is not holding His ears when you speak. He does not enjoy your pain that you’ve reeped.He is a GOOD FATHER .He requires obedience and honesty, and you will see the truth of God’s is for you. Salvation is for you . Peace is for you.His unfailing Love is for you. He……..wants………YOU!!!!!!! 
No PRETENDING! Captive heart go free!

Woe to those who call evil good and good evil, who put darkness for light and light for darkness, who put bitter for sweet and sweet for bitter!
Isaiah 5:20 ESV